wonderful awful pills

Doc says it safe to go off of the wonderful awful pills. I'd be more hesitant, but I hate it so much that I am willing to do what he says. Never in my life have I loved and hated something so much.

love how it increases my chances to keep this pregnancy
love how blessed I am to live in a time of medical technology miracles

hate how it makes morning sickness into every second sickness
hate all the other side effects that make me miserable

hate how it makes me sick and then I throw up my pills and then I freak out because I need them so I try to take more and then I get sick again and end up a stressed starving sobbing mess.

So goodbye and good riddance.
(now Placenta, DO YOUR THING!)